Friday, January 29, 2010

Tried hard
























You had tried hard
to find someone to love you
but
are you happy or not?

You had tried hard
to find someone that you love
but
are you happy or not?

You had tried hard
to keep a relationship
but
is it worthy a not?

You had tried hard
to keep someone by your side
but
is it worthy a not?

You had tried hard
to not be your true self
but
don't you feel tired?

You had tried hard
to not hurt yourself
but
don't you feel tired?

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

不能说的秘密

































我好爱他 但是这是一个不能说的秘密。。
我不想连朋友都没有得做,
为了他 我已经改了很多
为了他 我已越来越来 不像自己
迷失了 自己。。
我已累了,
只想找个人来陪我 疼疼我

他认识的我 是个坚强的人, 根本不用人的呵护。。
我的性格已是如此, 他所喜欢的,
我没有办法办到了。。
以为时间会可以拉近我们的距离, 但是没有想到我们竟然是来自不同星球的人, 是永远都到不到的。

从来没有想过, 我的努力竟然不战而败。。
他说现在的他, 不想谈恋爱。。
可是缘来了 想不谈都难。。
根本无法拒绝。。

可能 我不适合他
可能 我们没有缘
可能 他根本 没有想过我吧!!!

在他的身边, 我连一个女的
坚强到 根本不用到他吧!!
但是他没发现的是 我对他的依赖
已经太多 太多了。。
多到我甚至 怀疑
没有了他的我 该如何下去??

他对我的好 让我无法自己地依赖着他
而迷失了自己。。
他的好或许 不是有心的
但是偏偏 是最执命 的毒药。。。


Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Back from MIA (to be continue)

I spend time reading all my post last time that I started writing during foundation until now..Although I don't write often now, but memory will always be with us.. So blogging will just help you to recall how much thing that happen during the year though I not writing about daily life.

I personally like to write about the feeling of being alone and being together with the person or thinking of someone though it might not be me or may be happen sum times ago.. For example, I notice I write a lots about my first love. I think as my closer friend they always listen to lame story. It might be lame but then those are all something that is the process fo making you grew, to be more mature, to be a better person.

May be because the first love really give me a lot of memory and sorrow that make me someone today. I will continue my love story here. Well... I hope if you do read my blog please bear with me.. Hehe...

For this yeaar....

I hope..


I can pass with flying color




Find the right one and remain





Friends remain as long as possible


Wednesday, October 21, 2009

well...
there is a long time i never update the blog..
when i open, i dun see what can i write in here...

Thursday, July 2, 2009

你们四个-对不起

我们大家应该算很有缘吧!
因为从不同的班 我们也能聚在一起
每一组都是一起决定想要做的题目
但是我们不是。

说一句实话
对你们每一个, 我会很不安。
因为这个题目是我当时选。
我的朋友, 我也不知道她想要的这个的吗?
只是她给了我百分之百的支持。
如果我有做不好的,
她也不会怪我。

所以当我知道我们会多三个人
我问你们的, 也是你们有其它的意见吗?
我每一次都会问
但是你们每一次都会说
不用,麻烦 或 都已经交了。
我朋友也有说过你们想过
要做其它东西。

对于我选的题目
我也没有信心要做好它
因为我对它的认识也是很有限
所以我也不肯定我有那个本事吗?
面对这样的我,
我真的真的不敢想象
我会做的好吗?

我没想过要分开
所以我才想你们想清楚
是要和我冒险
还是
换去你们所知道的?

但是现在误会大了。

我想说一声对不起
我不是什么都会的。
我不想让你们信错我。

Monday, June 8, 2009

Well...
I wanted to write about you long time ago.

Now,
I first meet you in Public Speaking class in our foundation, You have to make a introduction about yourself in our lecture class. I look at you, seriously I find you very famliar, like I know you before.

Both of our class had the smallest amount of people add up all together is only 20+. So, we had our group presentation together, that is where we got to know each other from the begining. The presentation bring all of us close together, knowing each other and also getting close. Ever since then only I know where you stay, suprisingly get to know that we have been in the same class when we are at standard 2 and yet we have never know each other.

During our semester 2, you had being so kind to bring me along back from uni, providing me transport and place to stay before my mother come to bring me back. Hehe. Some times you even provide my dinner with your family. Our friendship had been closer then.

Sem 3, I first time driving to uni. You sat beside me and be my first passanger. Although is not the first time driving, but I had never like the roundabout that I need to go through every morning, that make me never like to drive to PJ. I love to eat, and you spend the time eating with me, and we become fat together(i think), sometimes we even get scolding from your mother for being back late cause we went to eat as we was hungry.

When we go out together, or maybe sometimes there is a function or outing that I would like to go but not going alone, you will also tag along with me although after that you get the scolding. Deep down in my heart I remember, sometimes when I am in a very bad mood you will make jokes and funny faces to make me laugh, sometimes you even just let me tell you, be a listener. Then tell me my mistake after that. And the funniest is I always meeet a acciddent whenever you are not in the car. So called the safety driver when you are next to me to prevent you vomit in my car.

Though we might not be the closest friend to each other, but we can relay on each other any time any where. Hehe. (i think I relay on you more)

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

haiz... can't on9 at home. Line not working... So poor thing