disappointed

I m seriously disappointed with the guy I like. I think he don't even realise that I m sick or may be even I didn't attend class also he don't know. Yesterday I was not feeling well, attended school in a very bad mood, tired and sleepy. My best friend was worried for me , make me feel very warm. Thanks to all of you, muax. But he?? The guy I care for don't even realise. I think.

Today I didn't attend class today at all. I also don't think he notice. Svenni(my sis), wei yen and sin wei (all my dear) sms or even call me to see what happen to me. But he...?? He do nothing. I feel like crying at this moment. But never mind. I m very very very disappointed.

( PS: Thanks my dear wei yen, and sin wei. Sis thanks you. Muax love you all...)

Open your heart!!!!!

I still believe in my heart that I love that guy from the bottom of my heart. To say honestly the best to forget about the old one and the person you love yet hurt you is to go make other people as your aim and like that other guy. You don't need to love the other guy, but please do put your heart with him until you think you can let go the old one that had already hurt you. I agree with this statement. Because as you put your concentration on the other one you will have no time to think of the person you had love before. But please don't find the guy that already love you very much as this will hurt them. Like is different from Love. I can like a few guys but only can Love one person as this will take at least 2/5 of the heart. So if people who is smart enough, please put all your aim in like but not love. As if the guy you wanted to love don't love you also you won't be so hurt as it is just a like before that almost arrived to love.....

my heart

err... sum times when people like me and wanted to have me as their love or even willing to do any thing for me, seriously i really feel very touch from the bottom of my heart. But then they are not the one i wanted. May be there is a lots of people to love me, but seriously I only want one, the person i really wanted from the bottom of my heart and that's enough. I won't request for more. If my heart is with you there is no more point of finding other, because you are already the best for me in my eye. I cant change how my heart lead me to like you but if i really do is my fault as my heart have brought me a guy that doesn't love me.

Got lost in a jungle...

Sometimes relationship is not as easy as it seen. For a outsider, a couple might look very sweet but then no body will know the problem inside. The girl meet a guy and become a couple in a certain reason. They were very sweet and go out for date about four time. The girl really thought the guy fall for her while she is also falling for the guy. She remain with the guy for aboout a month. The guy was really very good and take care of her well untill the girl really like him already. But then they break after that due to the guy say got no feeling to the girl. The girl is unable to believe that the guy has no feeling to her but just for fun. She really believe in what ever he do is a act of caring for her. She really don't know what to do, whether to let the guy go as he don't want her already or to be eager on him make him fall for her???

Wondering

I am wondering
He is who I wan
But in his eye
I m not the one he want

I am wondering
who is the dream girl
he always wanted
Is she so special?

I am wondering
Am i that embrassing
untill
He got to run from me?

I am wondering
if his heart
Have a space
For me?

I am wondering
what did I do wrong
till I get
nothing but hurt from him

I am wondering
If ever he love me
in the bottom of his heart?

badminton is like Love

Every thing started by a mistake as every thing is starting too fast. In only a few times badminton together , after the first time we play badminton besides know each other 3 day later for some reason we got together. That why.....we feel tense up i think. Now we are even more stranger just like I had never knew him in my life. I really hope that I didn't started the game together with him and all this wouldn't happen. I will still be the same like before. Our relationship is like a badminton game that we always play. Started fast and also ended fast!!! When the final comes, if we lose there is the end of all our relationship too but the opposite if we won the gameyou will get a whole world. Sometimes a badminton game is a game that is dangerous as it might also gamble the feeling.

My best buddy, the queen

Friends, are not always the same seriously. By not studying together and a different enviroment will really affect the person to change till become a person you don't know? But this is only for half a year..not years we haven't been meeting. How can she change to be some one i really don't know? Where is my best buddy?

We know each other by badminton, same school but have never meet till we start joining the badminton club. She is a very nice person, very cute, innocent, understanding. We are so good till we can read each other mind without telling a single word...(seriously) She is one of my closer friend compared to others as we really enjoy most of the things together.

This year she study different school from me. We already make many deal that we want to do together and she always put it as the last. No matter how busy m I with my school work I will always attend the date we both set as one month date but she been missing it for at least once in few month time... I really don't know what happen to her. I really miss the old her... Please give me back... Thanks